Burning Blue

I tried to forgive and forget 

But my heart It still carries regret

My pain It hasn't faded yet

It lives in ruins of my trust

Where hope has died and turned to dust

My wounds they still bleed beneath my skin

From all the damage you dragged in

For every lie, every silence, every sin

Wrapped in apologies

That sounded more like excuses

I'm tired of the lies I force in my mouth

Just to keep the peace

Tired of calling betrayal “a mistake”

To stop our bridge from going up in flames

I've forgiven you so many times

 I’ve forgot what it feels like

To hold someone accountable

In this prison I’ve never felt more confined

Forgiveness became the knife in my spine

You buried the truth beneath every line

Every time I forgave it felt like

I was carving a piece of myself out

And handed it to someone

Who never deserved it

I am a sinner too and we all make mistakes

But still I would've never treated you this way

My forgiveness It didn't set me free rather it destroyed me

I got stuck in a dangerous cycle

Where every time you hurt me

You never truly felt any guilt

Because I’d always say “it’s okay”

But I'm done bleeding for people

Who keep handing me knives instead of love

No more shrinking to keep you whole

No more losing parts of my soul

I’m burning bridges built on pain 

I’m cutting the ties that left a stain